February 7, 2013

dear ryann

To my little strong headed spitfire -

Very very soon your whole world is going to change.  Your baby sister is going to be born, and nothing in your little life will ever be the same again.  Some days (ok almost every day) I feel a little guilty about that.  Right now you are my everything (well, besides your daddy of course, be he is a bit more low maintenance than you).  My world more or less pretty much revolves around your wants and needs.  Not too shabby, huh?  I love that you're my little sidekick.  My itty bitty partner in crime.

But soon, soon Elsie is going to join our family, and my world can't just revolve around you.  It has to include both of you.  She is going to have wants and needs too.  And my time is going to have to be divided.  I hate that.  I hate that I can't give you everything anymore.  But you know what?  Being a big sister is pretty darn awesome.  Your Auntie Lorin and I?  Well, we rarely ever see eye to eye.  Yet I wouldn't trade her for anything.  And I am so incredibly thankful that I have a sister.  There is just something so special about having a sister.

Because of that, I know that even though this is going to be tough.  And even though I feel like I'm taking something away from you.  Giving you a sister is going to be amazing.  You will be a great big sister.  I just know it.  I'm sure you'll try and mother Elsie more than she'll like.  I have no doubt that you guys will butt heads from time to time.  But there is nothing like having a sister.  Having someone who in the thick of everything will always have your back.  Because you're sisters, and that is what you do.  So even when she is driving you up the wall and you swear you hate her and can't stand her for another minute?  Love her.  Love your sister.  Just trust me. 

Oh my first born, some days you drive me absolutely batty.  There is no denying it.  I never knew that such a small person could be such an emotional roller coaster.  But I am so incredibly grateful that you made me a mother.  There isn't a day goes by that I am not thankful that you're in my life.  You've made me a better person, stronger than I ever thought possible.  Thank you for that.  Know that no matter what, I'll ALWAYS love you.  More than you could ever dream.  You are my bestest.

finally ordered the remote for my camera, someone please tell me why I didn't do it sooner??


Caits said...

oh for the love of pete. I'm reading this at work (gasp!) and crying. so sweet. And, i totally love the pictures at the end!

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Sarah and Derek said...

Well that was a tear jerker! Elsie couldn't have asked for a better big sister and although Ryann might have a rude awakening for a bit, I just know their going to be the best of friends. Nothing better then having a sister!

Ashley@MarriedLane said...

So sweet! She's going to love being a big sister - my daughter was only 17 months old when my son was born, but even then she would "help" by bringing me birth cloths and diapers, and loved to "nurse" her own babies! Siblings are the sweetest, and you are going to love the relationship those girls have!

Erin said...

Love this post!!! I had a lot of the same feelings before I had #2 and now, they are best friends! It is seriousl the BEST GIFT you can give Ryann! She will love her sister and you'll love watching them grow close together!

christa said...

Such cute pictures!! Good luck today!!

Amber said...

Aww! This made me tear up! As you already know now that you've got E in your arms is that your love for #2 is just the same as your love for #1 and that is the weird thing about having more than one kid. It's just hard to explain until you do.

Perhaps what is better than having just one child is the gift you're given when you get to watch that child be a sibling. It's incomparable and I'm excited for that journey for you. Because it's going to be awesome (and not so awesome at times too but you know that).

How lucky is your husband to have three sweet ladies in his life? LUCKY.

Joi said...

So sweet. Definitely made me tear up.

Nicole said...

Wow. I just lost it. You put into words exactly how I felt when I was about to have my second. You are such an amazing mother!