December 12, 2014
how far along: 5 weeks (compare to 5 weeks with Elsie)
size of baby: according to the bump an appleseed, a wee .13 inches. The major organs are starting to form.
weight gain: A whopping .2 pounds. Although based on the amount of hunger I've been feeling in the afternoons and evenings it is going to be a whole lot more than that soon. Unless morning sickness sets in of course.
maternity clothes: nope
symptoms: I get queasy here and there, but nothing crazy. I am so incredibly irritable. It is insane. I almost can't stand myself. I did have some terrible reflux during my longer run this week. That was gross.
exercise: Two 3 mile runs, a 5.5 mile run and one barbell class. I want to try and lengthen my runs a little bit, but being cold and dark in the mornings isn't really motivating. I'm hoping to run a 10K in February, so I don't want to start slacking off.
cravings/aversions: In the mornings nothing sounds good. I can't decide if I don't want the food, or I'm too lazy to cook. A little of both maybe. And eating some chicken sausage the other morning felt like torture. It isn't that it doesn't sound alright, but trying to chew it, I don't know. It was just gross.
sleep: I'm so restless throughout the night. Tossing and turning and in and out of sleep. I'm still anxious about getting to the next day, paranoid that I'm going to have a miscarriage. I'm hoping that once I see or hear a heartbeat I'll relax and sleep a little better.
gender: No idea.
looking forward to: My first OB appointment on Wednesday (12/17). I doubt that I'll get an ultrasound or they will really be able to settle my nerves, but still. I'll be a day shy of 6 weeks at that point, and I feel like that would be a good step towards a healthy pregnancy.
worries: Just still so paranoid about a chemical pregnancy or miscarriage.
what's different this time: Even though I think about the pregnancy regularly, I keep having to remind myself I'm pregnant.
milestones: Forget this line. I hated it the last two pregnancies. It disappears next week.
best moment this week: Because I'm terrified about losing this pregnancy, I've taken an absurd number of pregnancy tests. A few days ago the test line was actual a fair amount darker than the control line, and that is giving me some confidence!