March 14, 2011

i'm a pessimist

I can't help it.  For some reason I always find the negative in every situation, or expect the worst thing that could possibly happen.  I try not to let that rub off on anyone, but it is tough.  I try really really hard to be peppy and upbeat and excited about everything.  I'm just not that good at it.

Also, as I'm sure you've discovered, I'm a very Type A girl, with obsessive tendencies and a control freak attitude.  Don't I sound like a barrel of fun?  Sheesh.  (Really, sometimes I can be fun, I promise :o).

Those qualities make weight loss and changing my lifestyle a wee bit tough.  My mind is constantly telling me I'm going to fail.  I've fallen in to a horrible habit of weighing myself daily, and beating myself up if the number goes up by .2 lbs, or doesn't budge at all.  I question taking my vitamins because it will add another 20 calories to my total.  (I uh, go the gummy vitamin route.  I hate taking pills.  Seriously though, the Vitafushion gummies are delicious!)  Obviously I know that a flucuation of .2 lbs could be chalked up to numerious things, and the benefit of the vitamins outweighs the added 20 calories in  my day.  But the pessimist in me just can't understand that.

After my second week on this journey towards a healthier me, I am making progress.  I'm down just over a pound, making my total loss so far three pounds.  Definitely still on track to lose five pounds by Ryann's party.  Today I completed week three day one of C25K.  Those three minute running segments were a little tougher than I was expecting!  That makes me nervous for next week, with a five minute run thrown in there.

Which brings me back to why my pessimist attitude is so terrible.  I feel like I might as well give up because next week is going to be too hard.  But this morning I read this post over on Heir to Blair, and I am going to do my best to follow that advice.  Every day is a new day.  I need only to worry about my choices I am making to day, and not worry about what the next week, or the next month will be like.  Yes, next week's workouts might be really tough for me.  But I'll cross that bridge when I get there, and not let it impact my ability to do my best today.

My goals for this week, are to watch my sodium intake, and to drink more water.  And as I type that I realize I should probably go fill up a glass.

One day at a time. 


Kelly said...

I had to put my scale away because I was obsessive about it. And the worst part is I would weigh myself right before bed and then beat myself up because the number was never what I wanted it to be. My advice is put the scale away and only let yourself do it once a week!!

Kalen said...

This isn't going to help because pople say it all the time, but my husband was obsessive about his weight in highschool & college because he was a state champion wrestler. He actually wrestled at 112 pounds as a senior (YES, REALLY). Anyway, I trust his advice more than anyones because he would have to weigh himself multiple times per day.

Something as random as going #2 can help you lose 2 lbs. Water weight is very real & very unpredictable. Billy always said weighing yourself weekly or even every OTHER week is a much more accurate measure of weight loss. Also, you're supposed to weigh yourself in the morning, before eating or drinking, at the same time every day (if you ARE going to weigh yourself daily) and even then, water retention can throw it all off.

He could make himself lose a few pounds just by spitting all day (instead of swallowing the spit) and not drinking water/barely eating. Healthy? No. But it's just proof that not every pound is based on fat - a LOT of it is based on water.

Former Fat Bride said...

I put the scale away- I was being waaay too crazy obsessive over it. And hey- if I can do week 4 on C25k I KNOW you can!

Joi said...

Hang in there girl! You CAN do it! You are a great momma, wonderful blogger and I'm sure friend and wife. You've got IT in you.