April 4, 2011

wind = fail

Well me intention today was to be all freaking excited because hello, I ran 20 minutes straight on Thursday (ok, it was a jog, at only 5.2 mph, but bam.  20 minutes).  And then yesterday happened and I'm feeling very defeated.

Yesterday was the first time that I have not be able to finish the day's workout.  Not only did I not finish, but I bailed with a mere 30 seconds left in my last run.  I wanted to make it SO bad, but I thought my legs were going to fall off and I was going to vomit.  In my defense, I was running outside so there were some hills, and it was ridiculously windy.  But I'm still kicking myself for not just sucking it up and pushing through those last 30 seconds.  My reasoning for letting myself stop, is I knew I was going to make myself repeat that day anyway, because I was having a rough time with it.  But man, it is really making me mad.

I am surprised that I get to say my current weight loss total is 9.4 pounds, making last week's loss total 1.6 pounds.  I really thought I wasn't going to lose anything this week.  Did I mention how many cupcakes were left over from Ryann's party?  Like 30.  How are you supposed to lose weight when there are 30 cupcakes in your fridge?  Not to mention I am still not really in to my new eating habits.  This may be better for me, but I sure enjoyed my old eating habits.

Part of the problem is I watch Chris eat pretty much whatever he wants whenever he wants.  If he wants to eat three cupcakes and half a bag of chips, he does.  And he doesn't gain five pounds when he does it either (his daily lifestyle is much more active than mine, obviously, so that gives him a lot more wiggle room, on top of his great metabolism).  Don't get me wrong, he is trying to be supportive, and trying to eat healthier with me, but it isn't always easy.  I think meal planning would help us both, but we just haven't gotten in to it.

I have been doing a lot better with my water and sodium intake.  Not so much with the adding strength training to my routine, but hopefully soon I can make myself incorporate that.

The bottom line.  9.4 pounds down.  It has been tough.  I can't really see a difference in myself yet.  But I am damn proud of that number.

I'm linking up over at Heir to Blair!


Mrs. D said...

You're doing so awesome! Almost 10 pounds?! Amazing!!

Norwegian Phoenix said...

You're doing great! I'm glad to hear I'm not the only one who can't resist cupcakes. I've just started running again after a long break since high school so I understand your frustrations about the 30 seconds completely. Congrats on your weight loss, that's awesome! Keep up the good work!

Hanna said...

I thought you looked great at Ryann's party (which was beautiful, you should seriously become a professional party planner). I have a cook book called Hungry Girl, it has really good recipes for stuff that seems like it should be bad...pancakes, French toast, onion rings etc that actually end up tasting good and are easy to cook. I'd be happy to let you barrow it if you would like. Again, congrats on your success :-)

The Bignon Family said...

Wow, that is awesome! Congrats!!

Former Fat Bride said...

Awesome job!! You are doing so great and don't even worry about that stupid Kansas wind!

Devon said...

Days like that happen. I've been running for a few years now & they still happen to me. Chin up! You'll have a great run soon :)