January 7, 2013

a good smack in the face.

I apologize for my inability to get these posts up in the morning.  I had intentions of writing it last night.  Actually had my browser open and a few sentences typed.  But the words wouldn't come and then I was watching TV and then really I just needed to go to bed.   So, um, yeah.  Whoops.  You forgive me right?  All like five of you following my current lame attempt at staying healthy?  That's what I thought.

So I've mentioned before I'm an emotional eater.  When I got really really into running and had few distractions and was kicking butt at the whole healthy living thing, I had it relatively under control.  Running and working out was my new vice and seeing the changes in my body was a great motivator.  But then I got pregnant.  And for some reason I felt like a little slip here and there wasn't a problem.  Which in reality, it wasn't.  At some point I had to let loose a little bit.  Except it didn't end up being just a little bit.  It was kind of a lot.

And lately with the increase in hormones and added stress?  I'm doing things like nearly polishing off a bag of chocolate chips in a week by the handful, while also adding cookies, pizza and dried mango pieces to the mix.  Too much junk, too few vegetables.  Obviously I'm still doing something relatively right, I've gained under 20 pounds this pregnancy so far.  But as I grabbed a bowl of ice cream with sprinkles and parked it in front of the couch last night to watch the season premier of one of my favorite shows, I got a nice little slap in the face.

Yep, I still can't stop watching The Biggest Loser.  I can't handle some of the whining and crying, and I fast forward through a lot of the stuff.  But ultimately seeing where these people start and what they manage to accomplish is still inspiring.  So I tune in every season.  Last night, seeing the kids on the show though?  That was really hard.  I was never obese, but I was never the skinny kid.  It's uncomfortable to be biggest of your friends, I can't even imagine the emotions these kids must go through.

I looked at that stupid bowl of ice cream and I felt really guilty.  It was just one bowl of ice cream, it wasn't a huge deal.  But I'm soon going to be the mother of TWO little girls.  I want them to have a good relationship with food.  So I need to be the example.  I need to take care of myself so I can take care of them.

Obviously an intense sweat session isn't in the cards for me right now when I get overwhelmed.  So I need to come up with something other than chocolate to fill the void.  Please tell me, when you're feeling like you can't get your head above water, what are some things you do to stay afloat?


Anyone else still a Biggest Loser fan?  Link up health and fitness related posts below! 


Sophia Season said...

I'm an emotional eater too and chocolate chip cookies are my crack. I have totally fallen off of my workout regimen, but I plan to pick it up in the AM. I'm not huge, but I'm not comfortable in my body right now either.

I don't watch Biggest Loser, but I've seen previews. I can't imagine kids on that show. It hurts to see how cruel some kids are. Hopefully, I will get to link up with great progress next time.


Amanda said...

You sound like an active person. I think that you're too hard on yourself, girlie.

However, I am 36 weeks and do find myself reaching for pastries and bread when my body is craving protein. Maybe grab some nuts or trail mix instead of plain choc chips.

Brenna said...

I still read! I am also an emotional eater and also a "bored eater."
Hang in there- you are doing awesome!
You motivated me to start running and I thank you for that all the time!

Nessa Bixler said...

When we had cable I would watch that show and feel guilty ... but still chow down. Under 20 pounds is great - you look fabulous.

I am a TV nighttime eater. After the kids are in bed and I can still down and zone out - I snack and snack.

Stacey said...

Are you able to get your sugar cravings from other foods? I try to turn to sweet potatoe fries (not fried, but baked), raisins, grapes, etc. They all have natural sugars in them -- hopefully you can 'tame' the sweet tooth a little bit with some of these?!

Kelly said...

I used to be an ice cream fanatic and have a bowl almost every night. Now I have to stay away because it makes Nolan sick. I am an emotional and bored eater too. I know I "eat my feelings" but it's such a hard habit to break.